mother fucker. here we go again. stuck going round, all but merry, gaining speed. a heavy grip of momentum. it never ceases to amaze us, the tremendous force of a brain’s bad habits. how much we can get in our own way. it’s the truest test of the fool, really, the mistakes of an unlearned, immature ego. frankly we should know better.
and thus we’re hoping there is something with a greater potency than our tempestuous tendencies. a deeper (dare we say soulful?) intention to pull it together. to accept the lessons life is smacking us in the face with, to let them bump us forward as they rage to do. to live better. isn’t it the point.
most of us ignore signs, learnings, lessons when they come a-knocking. at first they’re wrapped up easy, breezing by us as we continue to insist we know better. so they come back for more, manifesting a little meaner, packing a heftier punch than their visits did prior. until you wake up one day and your shit does not look pretty. your vantage point the pit of a ditch you’ve been digging in your sleep.
well fuck. there’s only one way out and it’s up. we are on earth to get over sins, old habits, our nasty selves. forgive adolescent torments, daddy issues, the scars life guarantees to deliver. we are all broken. every human is hurt. we are each but surviving, striving for contentment. the point is to do your best to be better. live, fuck up, get up and learn.
Anonymous says:
ever think that maybe this is just who you are?
Anonymous says:
If you've done this 'again' you clearly haven't learned, have you B&R?
Anonymous says:
Oooh, the disapproving cluck of anonymous up there… tsk tsk, you must be terribly competent to be passing judgment on the lives of others and not just some sad, jealous bitch (as I suspect you actually are). Why don’t you leave B&R alone, and go do something that actually needs tending to, like shaving your back, perhaps?
Anonymous says:
Oh darling, if you actually knew Ms. Newts you'd be saying it too 😉
Anonymous says:
It looks to me like B&R is acknowledging an issue (and publicly, at that) and an intention to grow. That's more than most people manage (and certainly more than this anonymous bitching accomplishes). We each have our own shit to work through. Thanks for sharing yours B&R.
Anonymous says:
I do know her, and she is one of the most wonderful people I have ever met. How sad is it that you come back to obsessively check the blog of a person you don't even like? Aren’t you embarrassed for the day that the mask of anonymity is lifted and your slanderous identity revealed? This town is far too small to have a reputation of that nature…
Anonymous says:
Uh…so Bras and Ranties is a bitch…isn't that the point?
Anonymous says:
Wow, I didn't realize one comment was going to create such a bitch fest? I was merely trying to point out that if you repeat the same behaviours over and over, that may be a part of who you are, but in no way negating the possibility for growth.
-Anon One and Eight.
Anonymous says:
For the blogette and for life:
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
Theodore Roosevelt